So its been quite awhile since I’ve last posted! To be honest, school and homework has kept me extremely busy, and the thought of writing one more thing makes me a little bit crazy!!
In a completely expected twist, the busier I’ve gotten, the more disconnected I have felt from God. I had started lacking on my quiet time and devotions and when I did them, it wasn’t long before my homework-riddled brain was wondering how I was going to complete the mountain of homework that had been assigned to me. As I was praying tonight, I had a thought. It was about how following God is a moment to moment decision. Was it original or groundbreaking? No, not at all. But it had answered my question about how sometimes I could feel like God is right next to me, or how sometimes, I don’t even feel like a bleep on His “radar”. For the first time in months, I felt like I had to write, and if I hadn’t the thought would be gone forever.
Here is what I ended up writing…
“I feel like me following God is a moment to moment decision. I’m so fickle. Ultimately, I have placed all my faith in Him. Through every high and every low, I am His and He is mine. I thank God every moment for that.”
Since I have accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior, He has always been there for me. I am His child now and nothing could take that away. I know the God who called me by name and saved me from death. And I know there is nothing that can separate us. Not even a moment where my mind is focusing on a million things but Him.
If I have already been saved, what makes following Him a moment to moment decision? Well, from my perspective, every future moment is unknown. While I do know that I will trust God to be with me in every moment, I don’t know what each moment will bring. But in every moment, I can choose to honor and follow God. He has been teaching me to find joy in all circumstances and to seek out the bright spots of otherwise dim times.
While I do not know what the moments may bring, God knows and He has everyone of them ordered for me. I will choose to honor the Creator of those moments, not because I have to but because I want to. It feels me with such joy to be so close to God. Whether I’m honoring Him in a moment of silence while reading my Bible, or honoring Him by randomly doing something kind for a stranger and expecting nothing in return, or honoring Him by raising my hands in worship, I know it will be at a moment when my soul is truly at peace.